Everyday awesomeness!

Okay, just a pre-warning this is going to be a very sensible money spending promoting blog, which some of you may turn your nose up at....

With Pippin and I having to watch penny's pretty much all of our marriage thus far, we have become accustomed to selecting "value" products in supermarkets. In doing so we have discovered what should be bought... and what really shouldn't.... so here are some pointers!! (All of these are in reference to Tesco as that is our go to supermarket).

DO BUY:

• Everyday Value Instant Hot Chocolate- it is surprisingly delicious and costs something like 45p!! That's all we buy now (other than Ovaltine ;)
• Everyday Value chocolate digestives, and most other biscuits- perfectly edible beings though you only eat them dunked in milk or the above :D
• Everyday Value nappy bags! This is my newest discovery- you can get 300 scented and very durable nappy bags for 61p!!!!! I thought poundland had dibs in this area but these really cannot be beaten!
• Everyday Value frozen veg :D no need to say more as frozen veg is frozen veg!
• Everday Value tinned baked beans, chopped tomatoes and mushy peas- often more than half the price of the branded products and not much different, though I still do keep an eye out for deals.

DON'T BUY (unless you want to ;):

• Everyday Value tinned sweetcorn... we have a handful and they're no way near as sweet and crunchy as good old green giant!
• Everyday Value potatoes- even though you think you're getting lots for your money, that is often wasted in the number with black spots! Not good!
• Everyday Value ham... let's just say it's not even meat ;) hehe....

So there you go :) Random blog me knows! But ah well! Hope you all have a very merry Christmas! We're super excited to be going to mums and dads :D super excited is actually an understatement! So watch out for a post Christmas post with lots of VERY cute pictures of our smiley Sally in all her Christmassy outfits :D woop de woop! She's is officially the cutest thing on this earth, closely followed by her future bestie Binks :D

Love yous!! xxx

Bye Bye Bump Bothers!!

It's official, you have to make the most of anytime your little'un is asleep during the day, so 2 posts today it is :D

Today I have officially begun to appreciate having a more normal sized body without a human being inside it! Here are the bonuses of no longer having a hugemungous bump:

1. Swelling gone in hands means I can now wear my wedding and engagement rings again! :D I forgot what my hand looked like with them on :) pretty pretty :)
2. Swelling gone in feet and ankles! Meaning I can wear normal shoes again :) and buy new shoes!! The day I noticed the swelling had gone I got rather excited- it was like looking at Cheryl Coles legs to me!
3. I can wear heels again :) it's only my life I'm risking now (as long as I'm not holding Sally of course!)
4. Sleeping is sooooo much easier (when Jubba is asleep obviously). I forgot what it was like to sleep on your back and totally just spread out anyway you want.
5. I can snuggle with Davey Babes again :) and nothing gets in the way and it doesn't irritate me like it admittedly did the last few weeks of pregnancy :) both of us can fit snuggling on the sofa comfortably! :D
6. I can squeeze past people and things without worrying about poking my belly :) the kitchen is no longer an obstacle course.
7. I weigh less!! :D It's sooo nice to see more normal numbers on the scales again :)
8. Standing, sitting, walking and generally moving is sooooo much easier!
9. My wardrobe is opened up to me again :) it's like I've been shopping I forgot what I had :)
10. You have a baby instead of a bump :D

There is one drawback of no more bump though- I'm so much colder! No more built in hot water bottle! And boy do I notice it at night! I quite literally go to bed with undies, pjs, cardi and fluffy socks on and still need Dave's body heat to get me the least bit comfortable! Thinking I may need to invest in an actual hot water bottle- probably a good solution to this problem!
I have decided for sure that I'd rather go through labour (even my somewhat traumatic one) than 9 months of pregnancy- and that's saying something when my pregnancy was easy with no sickness and the like! But maybe I'm just bonkers :D
Okay, mummy sleepy time!!

My little Jabba :)

The day FINALLY came!! We have a bonfire baby :) and she is GORGEOUS!!
Here she is at about 2 weeks old!

This is Sally Laurelle Patrick, and she was born on the 5th November at 9.54pm, weighing 8lbs 15oz! So she was a jabba from when she was born and has continued on that chubby route! Boy does she love her milk! :D She's now 3 weeks old and 9lbs 11oz! Let's just say we can only just squeeze her into her up to 1 month old clothes! It's amazing to see her little legs, feet and hands get chubbier like every day! Plus she now has a triple chin! LOVE IT! Oh!! And she has TONS of hair!!! And it doesn't seem to be going anywhere! Unfortunately Dave has styled it into a mohawk so much she now has hair resembling Wolverine! *shakes head*

Ended up going in to labour naturally the day before my induction was booked in- 11 days late! I managed to get to 8cm just with one lot of paracetamol and codeine and in the usual time frame of a cm an hour (let's just say the midwife and Davey Babes were impressed ;) ) but because I had pre-eclampsia and a very very high blood pressure (the doctor lady actually said that it was so high that if they couldn't bring it down my head could explode when pushing!!! :O) they wanted to give me an epidural as they bring down your blood pressure (the main reason why they don't like women having them!). So at 8cms they started their attempt at an epidural (by this point I was already on fluids  and had a catheter in... fun fun!). And, well that ended up being not so simple because I apparently have a very strong back- the first anaesthetist kept asking if I was a gym buff which I found rather hilarious! Dave said all he could see was her pushing things in then having to pull them out again and her hands were covered in blood! Obviously I wasn't really paying attention to all this as I was concentrating on staying perfectly still and breathing through my ever greater contractions. My midwife was worried I'd be ready to start pushing before the epidural could work, but gratefully after getting another anaesthetist in, 2 hours later my epidural was in! And then midwife checked and I was 9-10 cms and she broke my waters! I can't say that the epidural really did anything, as I could still feel the pressure etc, but my legs were a bit floppy, and Dave thought it was hilarious as one of my feet were toastie warm but the other was freezing! But it lowered my blood pressure from it's highest of 180/110 to 110/68 or something like that, so I was reassured my head wouldn't explode!

2 hours and a new midwife later I started pushing. And we pushed for a good 1hr and half. I could sense that something wasn't quite right, but baby's heart was beating happy as they had a clip on her head to check. Dave was such a good man going back and forth between pushes to re-wet my flannel for my face. All of a sudden the lady doctor woman was back in and checking which way baby was... and boy oh boy, it felt like she was gonna pull the baby out with her bare hands!!!! Safe to say my epidural wasn't working anymore! They offered me gas and air but by the time I'd had 2 puffs she was finished and had established that Sally was back to back, and I would need a forceps to turn her round, and if that didn't work a Caesarian! This is when I was grateful for watching so many One Born episodes as I kinda knew what to expect- though I can't say the same for poor Dave! In the next hour all sorts of people were coming back and forth, I signed my life away, and the anaesthetist for the theatre was pretty annoyed as my epidural hadn't been topped up in like 4hours and so I wasn't numb at all and they needed me numb for theatre! Long story short they got her out with forceps quite quickly :D but not pain free for me as the epidural didn't kick in till after she was out of me! Fun fun! But by that point I was just so relieved and happy that she was out and alive, although they did hit the alarm when she first came out as she wasn't breathing. But I wasn't worried as a few seconds later after a few rubs she was crying and with Dave and I :)

So yep, pretty much experienced EVERYTHING! Was reassuring to know I can handle pain, and I think Dave now looks at me in a whole new light :D

We love our little girl soooooo much :D and she was worth every pain and stitch (I shall just say 3rd degree tear- trust me don't google it!).

I love her more and more everyday- even during her seemingly never-ending growth spurt, and explosive nuclear nappies, speaking of which I think a change is due for smelly Sally Sausage :D <3

Happy Day :D

Today has been a good day. A VERY good day! A very good day indeedy do :)

Had my pressentation scan first thing this morning. I won't lie, I woke up at 6.30am unable to get back to sleep as I got a bit worried and paranoid about where baby was moving. But then Pippin gave me a cuddle and told me it would all be ok! And after rather a few prayers I started to feel like it would!

The scanning lady didn't keep us waiting too long and as soon as she started she said its head was down :D a HUGE relief. I then tried to refrain from looking at the screen too much in case I saw anything in the downstairs department, but to be honest everything was so big and grey me and ma had no idea what was going on! Even better though she couldn't measure little pip's head properly because it was so low down :) then they gave us the low down- baby is swimming in the right amount of fluid (so my hugeness so many people see in me is not lots of water) but baby is above average in size but not on the 'big' scale! She said, around 8lbs with a slightly evil twinkle in her eye. I asked if I could get it in writing and she laughed... But she did in someway assure me it's not a 10lb monster!
So we were all very happy! Just means pip needs to arrive soon because I don't really want it growing much more considering it could be in there another 2 or so weeks!

Was also a happy day as ma and pa surprised us by giving us our Christmas present early :) a most amazingest tumble dryer! Our lives are complete! I'm sure it will be well used!

And thirdly, we finally found out how much Davey babe's 6 monthly pay rise is, and it's higher than he thought was possible! A wonderful blessing! Dave said it's as payment from Heavenly Father for his new calling hehe :)

One thing's for sure...we are blessed beyond measure! And secretly I'm hoping we'll get another final one in the next day or two in a chunky baby form :) Surely that's not asking too much ;)

The naughty 39 week old...

39 weeks today! And baby is proving to be more like it's daddy than ever being a cheeky little thing! Saw the midwife this morning and she's was trying to find baby's heart but they were playing up! She couldn't work out where it was and stuff.. she said it felt like pip's head was down in my pelvis, but she was picking up their heart high up.. and then there's a boney lump where the bum should be which could be it's head (or a boney bum!). Sooo yep... all very upside daisy and it means we get to see little pip tomorrow morning on a scan! I think we may be shielding our eyes from the screen as I've heard that bits or lack of bits are much easier to see this far on! But it does mean that soon to be Nanny Shell will get to come with me as her and pa are arriving tonight, so it will be a wee adventure! Let's just hope this baby sorts itself out!! Otherwise I'll be having a few words with them!!!

Poorly Patrick Pair

Writing this amid sniffles and a fatty feeling head... as well as with a baby inside me who seems to be all to happy to keep me awake when I'm trying to rest. One piece of advice... do not get a cold in your final weeks of pregnancy! Tis not fun at all! As if you didn't have trouble sleeping already... I woke up at 1.45am this morning feeling a wee bit delirious and unable to get to sleep! After changing rooms twice, I managed to get a couple more hours before I woke up all zombieish and said goodbye to the hubby. I actually felt like a ghost... a very heavy tired useless ghost... though somehow I still managed to make his pack lunch- was obviously in automatic mode! After saying a big loud prayer out loud I decided to listen to some general conference and rest... so I rested during that before managing another hours rest. At least my spirit was edified even if my body totally wasn't! All in all has been a long tiring poorly day.. but very gratefully hubby has stayed home from going out to Ward Council... I felt slightly bad as it was like his first opportunity to properly do his duty as the new second councillor on the bishopric (we were rather shock-ed and amaz-ed by the call to say the least, and it's taken some adjusting to!), but obviously they all understand that poorly pregnant wives come first, even if it's only his company that makes me feel any better :D Plus... he had the cold first, so it's kinda his fault I've got it I reckon! You share everything in marriage it seems!

Second reason not to get poorly when pregnant is that your only source of medication is paracetamol.. oh how I dream of beechums and actifed, and all those other drowsy or caffeine fueled pills! Thus hot lemon and olbas oil are also on the menu to try and sooth this poor soul- I'm not one to shy from self pitying especially when in such a state! Luckily got my 38 week midwife appt tomorrow so maybe the midwife will be able to give me some magic cure! One can only hope! Baby better wait this cold out before it comes... I is not ready to go into labour with a runny nose... not a good look I'm sure and not the best first impression to give to little pip! So stay in there for the weekend at least :D

Hoping you feel appropriately sorry for me :) flowers and chocolate are welcome (chocolate more so if I'm totally honest!)

Here's to hoping for a better night's sleep :( oh how I feel this is but a snippet of things to come!!

Full term??? What?? Huh???....

When did this happen! Although it seems a long time coming, I'm now suddenly realising how fast the past 9 months have gone! It makes the mind boggle!

37 weeks today... so baby will officially be arriving in the next 5 weeks!! Like this is it... this is the be all end all!! Obviously it would be nice for it to come in 2-3 weeks :) but I'm getting to the point where I don't really mind waiting as the reality of everything is starting to set in.... I'm gonna be a mum with a newborn baby for pity's sake! Who planned this???? There's one big man cheese to hold responsible that's for sure (and nope it's not Davey Babes!).

Met with my wonderful midwife yesterday for THE talk! And I was surprised how relaxed I felt coming out. I think I'm just really grateful that I have a laid back personality in terms of I accept that what's going to happen in birth is going to happen and I can't control it... luckily I'm not big on being in control of everything too.... Also helps that my midwife's not made a big deal of having a birth plan, so I don't have false expectations! The dream plan would be to have a low risk labour, and to be able to just relax at home and have baths as long as possible before needing to go to the hospital (I'm planning Lord of The Rings, Harry Potter, and Twilight marathons to pass the time :). Would love to go to the birth centre and have a birthing pool and other contraptions and have a normal labour :) not sure if I want to deliver in the bath, but I imagine if everything gets going I'll just go along with whatever feels right and is the most relaxing. But I'm ready for whatever they think is best for me and I accept that water and gas and air may not be enough to keep me sane, and I may be in labour for a LONG time and need other help! As long as I can stay relaxed and those around me keep calm (which I hear midwives are PRO at) I think I'll be ready for anything! But maybe that's a bit hopeful. As long as baby comes out happy and healthy I'll accept however and whatever way it needs to come into the world!

So when are they going to arrive?! That's the question now! We've started taking sex, date and weight guesses, and most think it will be just before or just after my due date of the 25th, that it will be a boy, and weigh no more than 8lbs (which secretly makes me happy :). Dave and I are being somewhat optimistic I think though.. as he's guessed next Saturday (13th) and my feeling a couple of months ago was the 15th so I thought I would go with that. Although Dave was adamant that baby is coming today... but at the moment that's definitely not proving to be the case! I think he's just looking forward to having time off work :D little does he know it's not gonna be quite the holiday experience :D

My mum is coming to stay the week of my due date, and then my dads coming to join her the following week, so I think they're hoping it will come whilst they are here, which would be nice. Although I can't imagine what my mums gonna be like if Dave and I have to go into the hospital whilst she's here by herself, and she decides to stay at our house to wait it out. I'd bet that we'd come back to a spick and span house.. may have to get lots of baking ingredients so she can bake the time out! Fingers crossed there'll be a Man Utd game on to distract her... but the combination could also make her nerves explode... we shall see :D

One thing's for sure the next few weeks are going to be new and exciting and well... who knows?? :)

AND... we finally have our boys name :D woop woop! Just in time hey? I keep forgetting that we don't know what sex it is.. it's just become a baby :D with no bits either way hehe...

Wish me luck and relaxation!

Blessed

In our Relief Society lesson today the teacher asked if we ever feel we get blessings we don't deserve. I do. I definitely do. All the time. My life is made of them!

Today my big blessing is our little baby. Not just the fact that we've managed to create a life, but that this life is going to be blessed with the greatest family in the world! Knowing that I have my mum, dad, sister and brother in my life makes me realise that whatever mine and Dave's failings as parents may be, they will have grandparents and aunts and uncles that can make up for our mishaps! Perhaps the reason we're being blessed with ickle pip is because of how amazing they are :D that definitely makes more sense :D A weekend with them makes me realise why eternal families in the next life is going to be so unbelievably magical! Who wouldn't want to spend forever with the Vingoe's :D

Little pip there's some pretty special people waiting to meet you! But you already know that ;)

5 weeks and beyond!!!

Only 5 weeks to go! Baby Patrick could be here in a month!!! And I'm very excited to meet them and finally find out what they are!!! We're thinking of taking bets soon :D we just need to work out what the person wins if they get the sex, date and weight right... any ideas??

My baby app for the 35 week mark says "His elbows, feet or head may protrude from your stomach when he stretches and squirms about"- they are not lying! It's creepy as I can kinda push baby from one side to the other if they're squishing me too much! Not much more room in there methinks! Starting to love my stretchmarks a little bit though... granted it's a good job I'm not a bikini kinda lady, for everyone else's benefit, but I do love how I have this band round my middle that looks like a volcano :D

Was Davey Babes birthday yesterday- he's 27 now!!! What an old man.... don't know why but there seems to be a huge age gap between 21 and 27... I broke the sad news to him last night that when little pip is 20 he'll be 47, and I'll be a hot momma at 41 ;) hehe...

Anyways! Here's a few more outfits! It's official! My autumn/winter wardrobe is on it's way out :D hello maternity jeans ;)

Top: Primark, Belt: New Look, Skirt: River Island

Top: Maternity New Look, Belt: New Look, Leggings: Primark

My first official "Autumn" outfit!

Top: Topshop from charity shop, Cardigan: Primark, Cords: River Island (managed to fit with help of belt band woop woop!!), Bracelet: Pandora

Kinda threw this one together but it worked :D

Dress: Primark, Jumper: H&M from charity shop, Leggings: River Island from charity shop, Belt: New Look, Necklace: Topshop I think! Shoes: Tesco Florence and Fred

35 weeks :D Vest: Maternity H&M, Shirt: Men's shirt from charity shop, Jeans: New Look maternity :D

Not long now peeps! Wish me luck as I become larger and more incapable of doing anything! Yesterday when I was walking back from town with hubby I was huffing and puffing all achy and Dave was asking if I wanted him to carry anything for me (all I was carrying was a hot chocolate and a cake! Good combo I know ;) ) and I was just like... it's the baby I need you to carry! He did try to lift it and be all cute for me (yep the hubster is capable of cuteness ;) even at 27 hehe) but yep... think my daily errands into town and bringing home a couple of bags of shopping are over :( methinks Londis will be becoming my new best friend!

Ta'ra ma luvs! <3

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock...

6 weeks to go! Maybe even less!!! Who knows?!! I jolly well wish I did :)

To aid in my countdown I have decided I am going to make the most of shops getting too excited for Christmas and buy an advent calendar for October :) one benefit of having a baby due the 25th :) but aiming to get one that goes to New Years... you know.. just in case, otherwise I think life would be unbearable if I was overdue and had no chocolate left :( I shall let you know which one I purchase! Shall have to be a gender equal one too so baby doesn't take offence!

In need of a wee catch up methinks!

We spent a lovely weekend last weekend in Leeds catching up with my bro in his new swanky bachelor pad (hubby was a wee bit jealous methinks!), and friends from our old ward- especially a certain beautiful little family called the Parr's who have a gorgeous little girlie who Davey Babes fell in love with just a little bit! He said he was trying to impress me with his daddy skills but I think he was just charmed by her rather a lot! But who wouldn't be! :)

Then Tuesday was our 2nd anniversary :D we spent a lovely evening together sharing presents (mainly of the chocolate variety), going to a VERY yummy italian restaurant (it's like PROPER italian as it's family run and there was a little family argument in italian in the middle of dinner :) defo added to the atmosphere! LOVED IT! The head chef, and I imagine the big daddy of the company just kept shouting "FINITO"!), and watching The Hunger Games :D was well worth the wait! The past 2 years have been a whirlwind! This past year especially! We've achieved so much it's truly magical and can only be because of a wonderful loving Heavenly Father, and earthly family, who have blessed us soooooooo much!! A marriage is really made up of love from so many sources :) though the love between us cheesy two has definitely grown, and no doubt will explode even more once little pip arrives! The mind boggles!!

I would do a separate post on my wee fashion experiments.. but let's be honest... what is the point :D

Comfy and colourful!

Cardigan: Monsoon bought from charity shop, Top: Primark, Bottoms: Primark, Necklace: stolen from sister! :D

The stretchy at least 5 yr old dress!

Dress: Dorothy Perkins circa 2007! Shoes: Primark

All american! 

T-shirt: Primark, Cardi: River Island, Jeggings: Primark, Shoes: Converse

Skulls and nude!

Shirt: Men's Levi's shirt bought for bargain from Oxfam :) it's got mini skulls and pistols on it! Very on trend! Top: Topshop, Jeggings: Primark, Shoes: Primark, Necklace: Primark

Offical 34 Week pic! Was going to cut out my head but hey, let's not make you think I'm actually photogenic! Double chin wahey! Jumper: Maternity New Look, Top: Tophop, Leggings: Primark

My favouritist fashion discovery this week!

Shirt: Levi's, Vest: River Island, Skirt: New Look (got it a year or so ago for £2!! Got it in blue too! I know a bargain when I see one! Though it's not very maxi skirt in this given the bump! But the stretchiness is very handy :D)

 Quite impressed with myself actually now :D Check me out! Though today's outfit was less exciting hence no picture :D muahahahaha... why destroy the illusion!

Okay, brain is not functioning anymore! Pregnant Bethy Bonss needs milk and double stuffed oreos :D ooooooo yah!!

Bounteous Bump!

32 weeks + 6 days! Tomorrow will be 7 weeks to go! When did I hit the under 10 mark?? Though that does mean 7 more weeks of nearly non-existent sleep, followed probably be at least another 7 weeks of non-existent sleep! But at least I'll be able to sleep on my back again! :D Also that's 7 weeks to get my baby journal fully up to date! Nearly reached the 24 week mark! I WILL get there! Well I've not really got anything else to do :) apart from baby's big alphabet cross-stitch which is coming on very nicely :D

I am finding baby's movements more fun now though rather than creepy... though it's still rather freaky when you feel like a proper little foot shoving against you!

I've decided that, given my ample free countdown time, to document my bumpy outfits as sometimes I impress myself with how fashionable I manage to look with such an extension on my body! Today was one of those days! I love it especially when they're my normal non maternity clothes :D makes me glad that I haven't spent tons of money on maternity clothes which is ever so tempting! Here's today's outfit!

Top: Primark, Belt: H&M, Skirt: River Island, Shoes: Primark, Ring: Primark

And from memory I'm pretty sure the whole outfit's price is around £28! :D That makes me happy! Primark and sales are definitely my friend!

Bought a new dress today for a fiver from a charity shop, and hoping to be able to work it! That's if it fits with this balloon on the front of me! If not it shall have to wait till November!

(P.S. have you noticed how good I am at cropping my head out of outfit pics :) lets just say my face and hair are often far from presentable :D hair more so as it gets me all worn out and sweaty doing something with it! Thanks little pip ;) )

Scary thoughts!

32 weeks today!! This means that baby Patrick should definitely be here in 2 months (fingers, toes and legs crossed... though I guess legs need to be uncrossed for baby to appear- nice thought I know!!).

Starting to get VERY excited! And I mean VERY! Feeling quite ready for a wee baby now methinks... but I guess I could just be having a good week. Either that or I'm insane... OR more likely I'm sick and tired of being pregnant. I really do not quite understand women who say they LOOOOOVE being pregnant, and my pregnancy hasn't even been that traumatic! It's just very wearing and takes a looooooong time! I very much love knowing there's a baby in me and stuff (that's still magical), but what it does inside there, and the pressure and tiredness it creates in the rest of your body is FAR from magical! In my case at least!

This past week seems to have produced a change in my pregnant self. Firstly there are even more stretch marks making their way onto my body AND the belly is just getting bigger.. I actually really scared myself when I stepped on the scales a week or so ago and saw my weight in st. and lbs... was not a pretty sight. However I am starting to love my bump, like I'm starting to surprise myself when I look in the mirror.. it's like WOAH! That's all me! Plus having a big bump makes my legs look skinny (felt like Tina Turner the other day) and makes me think that me - bump = slender lady ;) Plus my hair is being all thick and glossy and lovely and doesn't come out in huge lumps in the shower like it used to. However this thick long hair of mine is also an annoyance as I get sooooo sweaty in general, but also it feels like such an effort to brush it, let alone blow dry it and style it! So I'm tending to adopt the wild lion mane look :D I think if anyone can get away with it it's a pregnant lady... in fact maybe it was me those people in Essex saw in a field ;) hehe... man that story still makes me laugh my head off!!

Anyways my baby brain is taking over and I'm getting a bit off track! So yes I have been appreciating my blooming body in the looks department a bit more... but boy have the aches and pains upped! It's not so much my back that's the problem anymore but every other part of my body!! Plus I'm getting more than my fair share of Braxton Hicks contractions and baby seems to be getting the hiccups at least 4 times a day... sounds cute I know, but trust me it can get a bit annoying. I've even resorted to trying to scare the baby to make it stop... now that is amusing to see... Sleeping is also becoming more problematic.. especially with middle of the night huge hunger pangs and it becoming a full blown mission to turn over from my left to my right!

So yes... all in all pregnancy is living up to its expectations. Just hoping that last few weeks aren't too unbearable and that baby comes along just right :) preferably in 5 weeks ;) hehe.. one can hope! Now boy is that scary... there COULD be a baby here in 5 weeks... Davey Babes was saying how soon we'll be saying.. "We'll have a baby next month!" Only 2 more sleeps till that!

I am grateful though that everything is going along, in terms of baby's growth and health, as it should, even if people say to me, "Ooo you must be due in like 4 or 5 weeks" and then I have to show them the slightly "If only" face and reveal that it's actually nearly twice that! I think it's just because I'm carrying little pip all on front and very low so I just look MAHOOSIVE but I actually measure right... or so I hope! I guess we'll find out at my next midwife appointment in 2 weeks! I'm also grateful that we've got everything ready for baby now- can't imagine going round town trying to get everything together when I'm this inflated! Though I know I'm going to constantly unpack and repack the hospital bag.. but I hear that's quite normal.

Just have a couple of shout outs to make (because my blog is just sooooo famous you know ;).
Firstly to hubby's cousin Caroline who FINALLY gave birth to her gorgeous baby boy Oliver Ejai, nearly 2 whole weeks late! How she coped I do not know! But I hope I don't have to learn how to hehe...
Secondly to my Mrs Hannah Banana, Pilchard and Binks who found out yesterday that they have a second gorgeous girlie on the way!! So it's official, if pip is a boy it shall marry this Holt offspring, and if it's a girl it will have 2 of the bestest and beautifulest girly friends in the world :D FACT!

Apologies for the lack of photos, but I be at the 'rents for the week so can't be bothered to work out how to get it on their computer and the like... so today you just have lots of rambling words :D Lucky you!! Now it's time for me to say goodbye and go eat melon- it's supposed to ease heartburn and indigestion- wish me luck!!

I've decided that little pip is a mini terrorist- they're definitely their Daddy's child that's for sure! When it gets to like 6pm baby is really high up and starts moving all creepily (this sounds really bad but it really isn't the most enjoyable thing in the world- the only thing that makes it bearable is knowing it's because little baby is happy and well!). Anyways, in the last week it has developed this trait of knocking me very annoyingly when I so much as rest my hand on my tummy. On holiday I'd just lightly rest my book on it whilst reading and it would get all annoyed with me- I always thought having a book rest was a major benefit of a bump! And then just now I've been writing in my baby journal (it's taking me FOREVER to get it up to date) and the back pages were just leaning on the bump ever so slightly and all of a sudden they were being pushed away!

To be honest, at the minute I'm just glad I haven't seen little feet sticking out of me or anything like that yet (let me tell you I've had some SCARY MARY dreams about it's fingers and body stretching out) and my belly button is still very much an innie :D . Although having said that you can really feel it's head and body, so maybe only time will tell! Especially as belly is getting bigger, and Davey Babes spotted my first little stretch marks under my belly button. Measured today and my bump is 46 inches round! And it was 44 inches less than 2 weeks ago!!

Argghhhh!!!! Just realised I'm 30 weeks this Thursday! Now that's scary! Luckily I've been a wee bit excited and organised, and we've already got the pram out ready, the furniture set up, and all the stuff for the baby (granted I got the last couple of bits today) in hospital and the first weeks or so out (pretty sure we've got a month's worth of nappies and wipes!). Just got to get the last few wonderful bits for me for the hospital (let me tell you my eyes have been OPENED as to what you need to take and why...), and then we're just gonna wait and see what it is before we buy the rest of it's clothes :) got 3 WAY cute outfits (H&M is AMAZING!) and a couple of packs of the basic sleepsuits and bodysuits! And a years supply of home made knitted cardi's :D but that's the bonus of having an autumn/winter baby :D

Apologies for the kikey post! (That's 'crazy' in Cornish :) Baby brain on full speed mode :D hehe.... I'm gonna go COMPLETELY bonkers when this baby's born, I can feel it!

Oh Cornwall!!

Cornwall, Cornwall, Cornwall.... we love thee more than... more than... well more than any other place on earth! So much so that my brother Christopher has pledged to regain his rightful inheritance of Land's End (the Vingoe's owned it before some other losers came and stole it from us!) as he is the only direct and true Vingoe male in England (or so my dad reckons!).

Anyways... last week we were in Cornwall on a most splendiforous holiday- the regular every year holiday in the same place doing the same things with the same beautiful people! Many don't understand why it is we go every year, but trust me, you would if you knew how magical our Cornish holidays are!

Christophe the bro picked us up early Saturday morning to drive us all the way down to bootiful Porthcurno! In the word's of Rain Man... he's an "excellent driver". We hit a bit of holiday traffic once into Devon and Cornwall, but still managed to get there by our BBQ dinner time in the BOOTIFUL garden :D plus, we stopped on the way and bought these beauties!!...

Yummy yummy yummy... the chocolate dreamcake was mine ;)

All in all it was another wonderful holiday :) filled with yummy food, the olympics, and my favourite people in the world (minus Rella Roo :( ). Here's some pics from the holiday of holidays :)

Beautiful beach :) sadly we couldn't go down to our usual beautiful Porthchapel due to the climb down not being particularly suitable for a 6 months pregnant lady! But Porthcurno beach definitely sufficed!

My patriotic painted toenails :)

My first of 2 proper cornish pasties :) the second was much tastier- so much so it didn't make itself onto my phone gallery :D hehe...

Porthgwarra on mums birthday :) and boy did the sun come out! We have sun lines to prove it! Though I'm not showing you mine ;) ;) hehe.... but let's just say if you took Dave's legs, my chest and shoulders and Chris' arms and face you had a lovely cooked lobster :D

Very excited to return next year with a little munchkin of our own :D

3 months to go!

It's 3 months till my due date (25th Oct!). It's rather interesting but very exciting to think that in 3 months I could be snuggling a wee pip! I really think it's gonna be early though, not just because I'm inflating at a fast pace, but because my mum had all us between 1-2 weeks early and all of Dave's bros and sister were 2-10 weeks early (obviously would prefer it to be the 1-2 week mark!). But soon to be Nanny Shell is adamant that it will be born on or after their wedding anniversary (the 25th :) so that she can be here for when it pops out as her and dad will be on half term :D. But I've got a feeling that it will arrive the 15th October and weigh between 7lbs 8 and 8lbs 2 :D just saying :D hehe.... it's sex I'm not too sure on though, as I've dreamt it's a girl, but everyone else thinks it's gonna be a boy and Dave and ma have both dreamt (on the same night) that it was a boy! As long as it's one or the other I'm happy :D hehe....

The last couple of weeks, along with my growing waistline I have noticed some other changes! Baby feels like it has less and less space. A couple of weeks ago it could easy peasy do cartwheels round and round in side. Now every time it moves and stretches it's like a balloon being blown up which is already full with as much air as possible! But I'm keeping belly lathered up in lotion to allow for elasticity! Pip also now fights back! When they're awake and I can tell where it's feet (or hands) are Davey Babes enjoys pushing down on it so they punch back! Sometimes even when I just rest my arm on my belly I get a little prod! Cheeky thing! Then Sunday I was sat on our HUGE beanbag whilst the missionaries were round I sat up and we could feel like the baby's whole head kind of protruding out, before they realised they had more space elsewhere! Although Dave did rightly say it could have been it's cute buttocks!

All the above is exciting and enjoyable... but other less comfortable happenings are happening! Sleeping is becoming more and more difficult! Every time I turn baby readjusts itself, for a good 5-10 mins after moving! Understandable I guess, but when I'm on my left side pip kicks me in the left side as if I'm squishing them, so I turn onto my right and they do the same that side! So then I lie on my back and they punch their fists upwards and I get cramp in my leg! So it's never ending fun! At least I'll be ready for a baby waking me up constantly (that's what I'm telling myself at least!).

Expanding belly is also starting to cause problems in the clothing department, sweating department (especially in this heat- but I'm not complaining) and it keeps bumping things. For example this morning I was making hubby toast and I kept nudging the plate on the counter with my tubby tummy without realising :) was quite funny really! And I can no longer squish in narrow spaces, as suck in as I might it doesn't go anywhere!! Also the other day I was attempting to try on shoes in various shops and it was near to impossible doing it standing up- I had to walk halfway across the shop to get on one of the seats, to only find my slightly heat swollen feet do not fit in them at all!

Perhaps most sad of all, I have realised the last couple of weeks that I'm probably not going to be able to see Skyfall (the new James Bond movie) and the last Breaking Dawn movie! Unless I go past my due date, so I guess I have to weigh the pros and cons! Going into labour watching a Mr. Daniel Craig would be pretty memorable though I'm sure! Ah well... the sacrifices I make :) hehe...

In other news a good friend (well friends) have had their little package come into the world :D A gorgeously perfect little boy! :D Davey Babes and I are a wee bit jealous :) they make such a perfect little family!

Also, very excitingly... my bestest friend Hannah Banana is pregnant with baby Holt number 2!!! :D Due 22nd January (2 days before my birthday, so rightly so that's when it's actually going to arrive :). So not so little Binks (the cutest girl IN THE WORLD!!) is going to be a big sister :) and little pip is going to have a future wife or husband! Although baby Manning (the aforementioned handsome boy) will also be in the running :D Arranged marriages make life much simpler!!

Here's the Banana Woman and I 3 years ago :) And we are just as bootiful ;) hehe... in fact more so as we are both technically BLOOMING!! :D

Beth Patrick's Good News

Sometimes I think it becomes so easy to get bogged down and overwhelmed by news that is so often full of the monstrosities that go on in this world. So I've decided to promote happy news :D The kind of stuff that gets overlooked but probably effects people's lives as much as sad news, but in a positive way.. if you get me.... sometimes you just need some cheer :) And this news made me realise that the future of Namibia is looking good. We may have no money, cheating bankers and politicians and monstrous people committing monstrous crimes, but at least we don't have to worry about where we're going to get our water (especially given the current trend in weather!!).

So yep, be sure to check out this news article :D Read some good news for a change! It may make you think differently about the world!
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-18875385

The man...

The past few months I have learnt a few new things about my hubby, Davey Babes!

1. Perhaps most important, he can and has put weight on :) he's now heavier than he's ever been before! :D This makes a wife very happy and he looks much healthier (even if it's due to him eating 900 calories of kit kats a day, and we had to buy him a new suit!)

2. He loves his job! I think we were both a bit nervous about what the change with him starting his first ever job would bring. But we both have finally become accustomed to waking up early and going to bed no later than 11pm :) And even though Dave does miss having more time at home, the second he gets in he loves telling me all about his day- even when I don't have a clue what he's going on about :D Plus the paychecks are very useful!! But yep it's a relief and blessing to know he's not afraid from working hard and enjoys using his brain (and has one :D )

3. He's going to be an emotional wreck at baby's birth :D hehe... I have watched a couple of episodes of One Born Every Minute (and now love it rather than am petrified by it). But every time I put it on or tried to mention any real details of it to Dave (or anything birthy related) he just put up his "I don't need to know" defences :) his argument was that if he's going to experience me in labour, he doesn't need to know about anyone else's experiences. In my head all I was thinking was that he's not going to have A CLUE, and will either sit there silently worrying, have lots of questions he should already have known the answer too, or will be useless and sit there annoying me (unintentionally) and play on his iphone :D hehe.... This was starting to concern me. Then last week ma and pa were here and we watched an episode I'd already seen together. I was just enjoying it and didn't even notice till a good 30mins into it that Dave was engrossed! Then when the babies were born and stuff he got all emotional and teary eyed. Was funny, because he was like "I'm going to blah when we have ours" and I think he realised why he maybe needed to be a little bit prepared, otherwise I'm pretty sure he'd just be a big state and even maybe end up fainting (oh please no!).

4. He's a bit of a wuss in general :) I had an inkling of this when we went to Pleasure Beach whilst dating and I realised how much I LOVE rollercosters. Now I thought Dave was pretty into them too. Now I'm not saying he's weak, but I clearly remember turning to him on the Pepsi Max to indicate to him that I was LOVING it and his face was HILARIOUS! A mixture of excitement and down right panic :D hehe... Well last night, we were both feeling rather poorly and there was nothing on TV so we decided to watch 'The Woman in Black' which ma and pa lent to us. We'd both heard lots about how spooky it was and I think were freaking ourselves out a bit. Admittedly I did put my fingers in my ears at a couple of occasions but Dave kept on putting the blanket over his head and looking at me and asking me what was happening rather than watch it himself :D Was rather funny considering it wasn't half as jumpy and much more predictable than other scary mary movies he's seen :D On that note though, I MUST watch this movie with a Miss Kate Evans- would bring me much pleasure as she got jumpy and scared by Avatar :D hehe....

So yep! Dave if you're reading this I LOVE YOU!! And am definitely looking forward to learning more about you as you become a daddy!! :D

16 weeks and counting...

It's official I'm counting down till baby comes! Getting very very excited, and my nerves are starting to disappear (for now at least!). I'm even really excited for labour just to find out how I react to it, and to be showered with compliments by Davey Babes and the midwives :D what more could you ask for... hehe... okay, maybe I'm slightly deluded :D

This past week has been a very good week for me :D

Monday I got my degree results, and I got a 2.1 :D so I'm well pleased that I didn't completely flunk this year, but secretly still will have loved a first! But I know I worked REALLY hard and did my best, so I'm happy to know that I got what I deserved :D plus, as my friend Zena says, I did it with a baby brain! Don't think there's many people who can say they got a boyfriend, planned a wedding, got married, moved, moved again (commuters distance!) got preggers and still managed to get 65-71s in their final exams, essays and dissertation :D So I am well pleased (as Heavenly Father says), and not the least bit proud of myself! ;) hehe.... I am very proud of my bro though who got his well earned 1st (he only needed to pass this year to get it he's such a genius! And he's already working at his graduate job- ka-ching!!).

So yep Monday was good- made even better by the presence of the one and only Rella Roo, +1 ;) ;) ;) hehe.... I say no more ;) ;) ;) ..... I shall save utter embarrassment for another time :D

Reached the 24 weeks mark on Thursday and got to see Mrs. Midwife (which I love doing :) and got to hear Little Pip's heartbeat (after much prodding and poking as they were quite literally running away from the midwife, she kept feeling it's legs and arms flying everywhere!). We also made our first 2 baby clothing purchases- one being it's coming home outfit, and the second it's halloween outfit as it will still be a wee red and wrinkly sprog (fingers crossed it's born by then), both from H&M which has some BEAUT unisex baby grows and stuff *hint hint* for all those of you complaining about not knowing what to get someone who doesn't know what they're having (although I'd also fully appreciate krispy kremes and muslins :D). But you shall have to wait and see these till Little Pip arrives (a long time I know, but if I've gotta wait for them to pop out the least you can do is wait to see a wee outfit!).

Here's my 24 week bump... and yep, I'm already an elephant! Don't ask me why!!!??!!!

I am happy to say though that they are pre-preggers trousers that I could get on with no added button, though I reckon that that's the last time I'll be able to do it as baby is so low, yet soooo high at the same time! I sure I'm feeling it kick higher higher everyday! Midwife seemed to think everything was normal though, but did say I'm getting a nice bump. Just hoping that it stays nice, because I feel like everyone looks at me and thinks I'm at least 6 months pregnant!!! People keep saying, "oooo it's going to be a big baby" but I reckon that it's either had a growth spurt the last couple of weeks, and will settle down, or it's just loads of fluid as baby seems to be able to spin around and stuff inside just fine and I've still not gained as much weight as expected! But time will tell I guess! At least I've got a significantly recognisable bump to show off at my graduation come Thursday :D hehe....

On a slightly sad note though, I fell over today walking down our dangerous drive! My leg slipped under me and I grazed my leg, foot and have bruised/squished my big toe! Just glad I had a big fat bahooty to land on :) baby of course was fine- proven by it's huge thuds and kicks during church today!
Here's the poorly leg for all to see!!

Really in need of a pedicure now as the plaster ripped of my nail varnish and my big toe is all ugly :( But I think I shall have to call on hubby's skills to do them as I quite literally think I won't be able to reach them (sucky!!).

Okay... here endeth the LOOOOOONG post! 

Rock-a-bye-baby

Just had a slightly surreal experience which has made there being a baby inside me a little bit more realistic! Little Pip had been kicking up a storm for a good couple of hours, and half our non-stop... and although feeling the ickle thing wriggle is wonderful it does wear you down after a while- it's kinda like having rumbly bowels or something... or like you insides are being kicked in to be honest :D hehe... so I decided to take matters into my own hands. I stood up and rocked side to side... and hush hush hush went the baby :D Here's to hoping it will be that easy once it arrives into this mad mad world :D hehe....

BTW.... for all you young hot mummas (or soon to be mummas) out there.. superdrug have got Huggies baby wipes buy one get 2 free!! :D Works out to be less than 80p a pack :D BARGAIN!!

And I may have decided "to buy" rather than not to thanks to a wee shopping spree on Kiddicare.com hehe... muahahahahaha.....

Toodles!

To buy or not to buy...

I feel like I've got to that stage in pregnancy where I'm questioning myself over whether I should be buying stuff that I see for ickle pip, or whether I should wait some more... just for pregnancy's sake as what do I do once I've bought everything? Also, if I buy everything now then I'll just keep buying stuff, so maybe in some way I'm saving money, which is always good when you're FOREVER saving up for a car!

However... we have bought the big things... BUT for the money saving reason :D hehe... ma and pa bought us our pushchair from Mr. Tesco because mummy (in her supermarket awesomeness) had tons of tesco vouchers to double on baby and nursery stuff :D so we had to use them whilst they could be doubled and knock a nice bit off the price tag! Of course, once we had it we had to unpack it and try out all the add ons etc... was quite funny watching my dad and Davey Babes trying to unfold it... they should have just left it to the master childminder Shell, as we worked it out in the end :D Then they made me practice taking on and off the car seat, and moving it around hehe... it's now up in the baby room (or what will EVENTUALLY be the baby room once it's no longer the "in between" room). I did feel slightly stressed out by it, as I was a bit naf to begin with.. but as I said then, I've still got 4 months to practice :D hehe...

We also saved money by ordering our nursery furniture set from Argos. We got a BARGAIN!! One of their nursery sets (white) which I loved was £100 off in their sale.. AND... thanks to all the freebies you get when pregnant I had a £50 off nursery furniture sets at Argos! It has a cot bed, wardrobe and chest of drawers, so we're vair vair happy! We ordered it about a month ago now methinks, and it's a good job we did get it in advance as they called yesterday to say delivery would be delayed due to stock issues.. so we won't hear anymore till July 19th, so who knows when it will actually arrive! So being a bit premature is good! I'm quite excited about getting it and setting it all out :D will then be able to store away the bits and bobs we do have!

On another note I think ickle pip is going to be a shy thing (hopefully a very chubby shy thing) as they never wiggle and kick when I'm around anyone else (apart from Hubby of course), and then today they were having a big old party, so I tried to record it on my phone (as you can see my belly moving- is pretty cool really!) but every time I had my phone out (and I attempted to catch it at least 4 times) they stopped, and then once the phone was away they started going crazy again! Cheeky thing :D They must have x-ray vision in there or something!

23 weeks today! 17 weeks to go! Doesn't seem very long at all.... scary mary...
Here's a pic of bump from yesterday... I love these pics because my bump makes me look like Little Miss Slender :D lets hope my bump disappears once baby appears and I stay so :D hehe....

The wonders of pregnancy!

I have just come across the greatest part of pregnancy- besides the juicy baby growing inside me....
MATERNITY JEANS!! :D
The comfiest things alive!! No jokes!! Think I am going to wear them the rest of my life :) I bought two pairs from New Look for under £25 thanks to money off and student discount :D The pair I have on today are "supersoft":) it's like wearing pjs :D hehe....

This discovery has made my ever growing self more positive! Been feeling a bit down the last week or so, getting so worn out getting dressed in terms of trying to find clothes that are comfy other than my stretchy dresses! Not only am I growing a bump on the front but all bumps and lumps and humps are growing, making all things more difficult! If anyone tells me I look lovely I laugh before saying... "Ooooo thanks" :) hehe... I often have the Black Eyed Peas song "My Humps" in my head :D hehe.... been a while since I've sung that :D All this growth is especially frustrating as I've only put on just over 1kg since being pregnant instead of the average 4.5kg... so maybe it's just moving from north and south to the middle! Hehe...

I do quite enjoy the challenge of finding outfits though... it's like my own real-life dress up game :D.... though recently my outfits seem more and more mumsie.....hehe... here's a few of mine from the past 5 weeks! And you can see my wee bump too!

Here is my "official" 16 week photo:

Fitting in "normal" jeans thanks to button extender :D (very useful purchase!)

Leggings are going to be a pregnancy essential methinks!

Then the sun came out! Was very happy that this skirt fitted no probs! Though I don't think it will much longer! :(

My rather larger 20 week self:

Disguised it well in this one! Think it's because it's still rather low down:

And finally a glimpse of the most wonderful supersoft maternity jeans :D

Here's to getting bigger every day and being a mumsie in every way :D

I think the phrase "Keep Calm and Carry On" is going to become very poignant!

Only the brave...

I overcame my fear today and watched an episode of One Born Every Minute- the second in my lifetime. The first episode that I watched a year or so ago mentally scarred me, but today's experience was better, despite nearly crying twice :D

But watching it has made me decide I'm going to pray everyday for a panic free delivery on baby's behalf! I can handle pain and weariness but don't want little Pip to feel any of it! It has also made me think that I'm going to definitely take the ignorance is bliss route! :D You only get one chance to go into it with no expectations, so gonna make the most of an 'uncomfortable' situation!

Here goes... 20 weeks to go....

Spoke too soon..

Just typical! Baby has just started kicking up a storm :) hehe....
Was funny....
I was sat in a somewhat relaxed position with my hand on my belly and Davey Babes was sat at his computer... and then... kick.. "Dave I think the baby's kicking"... kick... "It's kicking"... kick.. "THE BABY'S DEFINITELY KICKING!!" Hubby thought it was hilarious and rushed over and just caught one of them :) think little Pips gone back to sleep now though!
Today is a good day :D

When will I see you... again- well approximately 20 weeks :)

We're halfway there!! CRAZY!! Had my 20 week scan today and baby passed all the tests- saw its heart (all 4 chambers), its iddy biddy kidney, legs, knees, feet, hands and brain! Oh! And diaphragm! Lots of stuff! She was finding it hard to get a good look and measurement of its legs as Pip had them squished up to its chest. She was about to give up when it did a full 180 flip and had its legs "akimbo" as she said :) So at least someone was having fun with all the moving around because it makes me a wee bit nauseous hehe :D

Felt no real distinguishable "kicks" but I always can tell when its sleepy and still and when its live and kicking! So I'm not too worried!

Got myself a wee bit nervous about the scan today (inherited the major worrying gene from mummy- but is probably every pregnant lady's choice of mood!) so was very grateful that everything still continues to be perfect! I have been blessed very much with an "easy" pregnancy! The only real problem now is that I feel quite lightheaded and woozy at times, but it's expected at this time of pregnancy! Had to sit out of moving rooms around with Dave, ma and pa yesterday. Felt a bit bad incase they thought I was pulling the pregnancy card out! But they understood :D

So because everything went so well today, we won't be seeing little Pip till they decide to come out into the world! It's gonna be much bigger by then methinks! Do have a fun glucose tolerance test at 28 weeks though because daddy has diabetes! So it will be fun fasting for over 12 hours when I'm that far along.

Will upload some bumpy fashion clothes pics soon!

Lots of love from Bethy and little Pip! xx

To the business of food!

It has been FOREVER!! My only excuse is that I've been doing nothing since my exams and uni life finished :D which is a most enjoyable feeling!

But I thought I best share some part of my recent life with you, so why not food :D hehe...
But before that here is a picture of my finished dissertation- a huge accomplishment even if I do say so myself!
Ta daaa...

Magnificent isn't it :) 60 pages of intelligence- that's my hope anyway! Got to wait just over a month to find out!
My first food picture to show you is as follows...

For those of you who know not what these heavenly delights are, they are Pizza Express' dough balls :) this was my first pre-exam meal that I had with Christophe in Leeds- and it was most delightful as it had been such a long time since my last Pizza Express meal :D I sent the above photo (Davey Babe's favourite foody) to the hubby to maybe brag... just a wee bit :D hehe... I got the reply, "Jelly :( xxxxx". Hehe......


Now for my 'Uni life is over' meal :) again had in Leeds with the bro, straight after my last EVER exam :)

This is a most delicious bacon cheeseburger and fries AND A&W rootbeer from the most wonderful Johnny Fontaine's burger and shake diner :) we were most impressed :) had a most scrummy peanut butter milkshake! Think we shall be going back there for my post graduation meal :)

And finally....

A box of Nestle's "Dairy Box" :) was £3.50 instead of £7 which was most pleasing unto me! I think they are my favouritist chocolates :) lots of yummy pralines :) me likey likey! Plus it felt like I was indulging myself, treating my ever aching pregnant body! I tell you, I may be only 19 weeks, but my insides already feel very squished, and it seems like the ickle tyke is always awake :) the last couple of days at least! Don't think it's kicking per se, but there's definitely movement of sorts! Fun fun :D

Shall do another blog soon :) Promise :D